This is now private. I'm starting to need it again. I'm falling into depression again, help me God. I've nobody else but You now, I've no one to turn to, only because I'm afraid of trusting other people, afraid that they'll reject me and find me a nuisance (like how Joanne says she gets very irritated when somebody keeps complaining 'bout life). I'm different in this way, I've so much trouble coping with life that everybody else can't stand me anymore. I tried to be positive. I really, really tried but it always fails. How now what.. I'm a goner. The only reason I'm still going on is 'cause I don't want to let You down but You gotta help me, I can't do this alone, I never should have. Please..or spare me, take my life.